Thursday, April 23, 2009

I can feel my arteries beginning to clog.

I come from a family of heart health risks. Hypertension, myocardial infarction, angina, diabetes.
I am presently eating HUNKS of cheese (smoked gouda, cheddar) as part of my din tonight. Cheese is one of those disguised killers. It looks and tastes harmless, better, it tastes almost like it should be good for you. Unfortunately its one of todays finalists in the category of "shit that clogs your blood vessels." Nothing really gives it away as being unhealthy, I mean of course it tastes great so that should be the first red flag, but when i think unhealthy i think greasy (french fries), stinky (smoking), intoxicating (alcohol). In my simple mind the only inkling of my arteries clogging is the choking feeling I get from trying to get a quarter-pound of pepperjack down my throat. For whatever reason I associate its slow movement down my esophagus to the way my arteries might soon feel... not sure that makes much sense.

So im stuffing gobs of cheese down my craw, feeling kinda sick, listening to deathcab and ra ra riot (these are my favorite musics right now). I have been looking up ways to volunteer myself on the innernette now that I have free time and nothing to do. Unfortunately, and though it makes sense, every site I check out has a search engine which allows you to type your interests and search your area. Well, my interests are animals, or at least thats what i know, but I don't want to work in rescuing animals WITH those crazy save the animals people, in fact i would rather work in saving the animals FROM the crazy animal people. Secondedly, Baton Rouge sucks and why would i want to start a volunteer project when i know im going to be leaving here in a month. I want to discover something small that is new and developing but has good roots so that I can help it grow. I was on the TOMS website before. Helping them out seems like it might be really cool, but its becoming so mainstream, which I guess is fine, but that means they have plenty of help and support. I want to look for something new, like TOMS shoes 3 years ago...
I just want to help in doing something important.


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